I spent my night sleepless rationalizing that this isn’t worth it. I could only fall asleep when I have decided not to reply you any more and keep my distance, to pull out right now because nothing good could ever come out of this.

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And then this falls through, like any other time, when you talk to me.

WHAT AM I TO DO???????????? D: AH MAH GAWD WHAT AM I TO DO IF I LIKE YOU THIS MUCH AJSHUIASUIASA MOTHER OF GOD