February 2012
72 posts
For the record
I don’t share bout my work here or on twitter.
If you want to know how and what I’m doing, ask.
I may be jaded but the things that keeps me going makes it all worth it.
If only people I cared about knew, they’d be proud of me too. But unfortunately they really have no idea what I do for a living.
Bitch is perfect
Keeping it real.
No need for skinny bitches who only look like beggars.
there is no better picture
Love should feel like this, always.
Happy, with a bit of diffidence. The comfort of being friends. The sexual tension of two teenagers with raging hormones.
A lady with enough personality to be on her own and to find someone BIGger than she is ;) - a man worth respecting, a man worth breaking her own heart for.
This is perfect. This is what I want, anything less won’t cut it.
God I...
And when it starts to feel wrong?
I might regret this tomorrow
But tonight, my PMS, my brain and my heart doesn’t give two fucks.
The end, is near.
And so a new week begins
Sunshine optimism, let’s go!
Vrsn x
Sunday, staring at your text.
I try to think of something charming, something funny to say to continue the conversation - any conversation with you.
Yet, all I could think of is “Screw this useless conversation, I want to have a real conversation with you, I love you - so fucking what? Yeah, I love you. Irrevocably so.” Throw my phone one side, smash it to smithereens, I...
Can I not like you for just awhile?
The things you do and say does things to my heart.
You are so romantic, you don’t even know it. HEEHEEEtyusdnjkls
Blessed
I am not bursting with happiness. I used to think that true happiness is me grinning ear to ear on hours, or having this insane urge to scream “IM SO HAPPY” with the biggest smile plastered on my face.
This happiness is slow, soft, and quiet. It makes me smile, it makes me want to thank God, it makes me want to hold them forever to thank them for being with me. This is true happiness...
I know this is love but, if I tell the world I'll...
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Girls: “Tell him! You’d rather know how he feels about you than to wait forever in the grey zone! Tell him! If that’s the way you feel then say it. If he takes it badly then better to know now/he was never gonna be worth it anyway.”
Boys: “No. No. He won’t treasure you. Look at (insert exgirlfriends’ names). No. Leave it to the guy.”
...
I love this
This is funny.
my blog is lame
People who don’t know me will think that my life is a big joke.
I am getting it all together. When my world fell apart, I stood up within days, all I needed was my friends and I still have them. And nothing terrible happened as well, so… This over-reaction is nothing but just the works of PMS, I guess.
I hate to say this but I think I’m getting luckier in work, my career has...
i cannot handle this
i am gonna take a break, a hiatus from all of this.
This is me:
Tell me if I’m doing it wrong. Tell me. And if I should tell the guy, tell me and I’ll do it.
I am so sick of this. I want nothing of it. I’m just gonna go back to the embrace of my sluts and my boys. I want nothing of this.
I spent my night sleepless rationalizing that this isn’t worth it. I could only fall asleep when I have decided not to reply you any more and keep my distance, to pull out right now because nothing good could ever come out of this.
…
And then this falls through, like any other time, when you talk to me.
WHAT AM I TO DO???????????? D: AH MAH GAWD WHAT AM I TO DO IF I LIKE YOU THIS...
Robin
I realized that of all the tv serials I’ve ever watched, the one woman I can really relate to is Robin from HIMYM. (Apart from Carrie and Samantha from SATC, I am an unfortunate mix of the two)
Which is odd because I dislike that TV serial and out of all characters, she bores me the most.
I was just looking through tumblr and got happy when I saw this picture, and then I got reminded of...
love/hate Mondays
You make my Mondays a lot more bearable.
Feels great
Always choose your friends over some guy.
If he loves you/cares bout you enough, he’ll understand and respect that.
:)
what are you doing to me
I spent most of my Friday night and Saturday morning deciding not to reply to your texts only to fail miserably (which, really, is an understatement).
I feel like I will want someone to punch me in the face in the near future for getting happy over texts like these but, really, COULD YOU BLAME ME?
And just as I had expected, I might have just been “one of the girls” but not good...
じょうだんじゃねよ
Today was just full of ironies.
I “avoid falling” for people because they’ve got baggage - some too huge for me to tank, some I know I can’t remove off their shoulders unless they want to.
I “avoid falling” for them because, like you, they’re better as friends and as I’ve said before, “the idea of rejection is too much for me to take so it...
Sunshine
The one who came up with the “don’t play with fire” obviously haven’t felt the wrath of a huge tidal wave.
A fire is nothing compared to a strong wave.
Fire burns and hurt you at best, if you stayed on to let yourself get charred that is your issue. A flood leaves you with nowhere to run.
I am a Fire burning and you’re killing me.
What am I to do…if you...
All in a day's work
Everyone: Are you okay Everyone: You look tired Everyone: You look upset Everyone: You look confused Everyone: Are you mad at me Everyone: What are you mad at Me: IT’S MY FACE
I don’t understand how the entire world only talks to me when I have explicitly said that “I HATE EVERYONE.”
Some even get annoyed by me and get all passive aggressive with me when I...
Um
I cannot remember if I’ve said this before but… I don’t change for anyone. I will not stop anything just because someone I like dislikes me for doing this and that.
I don’t give a fuck and please get your head out of the fucking clouds, kthxbye.
Don’t ever forget that the relationship you’re in is one you’ve chosen to be in, one that defines part of your life, for a week or a month, ten years, or maybe even forever. Romantic relationships shape our lifestyles and our futures, so always make sure you are with someone who doesn’t hold you back, keep you down, or make you become someone you don’t want to be. This is also true for yearning...
well, fuck that, as always
I have found a situation worse than facing rejection (fore note: I embrace rejection, rejection is always better than say nothing at all), the feeling of inadequacy, even when you know you are so much (way more) better than this (whatever ‘this’ means).
I am capable of giving, providing so much more - way more and by that I mean whatever money can’t ever buy and it will make...
detachment
The power to destroy what I have created. The power to detach from the ones I love.
Nobody is indispensable to me.
Do not come any closer, you are not allowed anymore.
Conventional x Unconventional
My favourite version of ‘Wonderful Tonight’ has always been Damage’s, and more lately, Khalil Fang.
And until last night, I’ve realized that there is nothing more romantic than the original Eric Clapton version.
Soft night lights, just two people paying attention to this song while the rest of the people at the cafe went about their own business, I must have looked...
misconception
There is a misconception that moving on = forgiving.
I will allow people to give me shit for not moving on, but if you try to be a Samaritan and insist that I forgive too, you can go fuck yourself.
I will not hold my life back for some asshole, I have moved on and go forth to be awesome.
But to forgive? Never. It wasn’t so much the cheating but the way you..mishandled the entire...
Picture-perfect
It should look so effortless. No need for special camera effects, no need for poses.
The moment when the two are in sync, a bond so undeniable, so obvious that you can’t ignore. Effortless.
I like the sound of it
“The two of you may feel a feeling of “fatedness,” that this relationship is going to play an important role in your lives, even if it is not a long-term relationship.”
“It is extremely important that the two of you share a common background or experience, for it is likely to be a strong force binding you together. You may feel that you are alone together in a...
Friend/ Love
For the uninitiated, Proposal Daisakusen is one of the draggiest fucking drama in Jpop history but people will watch it anyway because of Yamashita Tomohisa (yamapi! at least that’s why I did!), and it hits close to home because everyone could relate to the whole “i-wanna-turn-back-time” thingamagic or simply falling in love with your best friend that you can never have, no...
The worst has yet to come
Very bad day in more ways than one. Feels like a cosmic disaster happened.
But it’s okay.
I am a lousy friend and I’ve never tried to portray otherwise, so please stop having such high expectations of me because it hurts me most when I have disappointed people I love.
All I have to offer is my heart and I will try to always be there for you. And if that isn’t enough, I’ll try.
I am a lousy friend.
Reminder to all:
It’s great when you finally realize that being miserable doesn’t protect you from bad stuff happening.
Groomsmen
After some really serious thought, I am willing to be my bro, Chau’s “bro” on his big day with my dear girlfriend, Kellyn. That is, if he wants me to be, I am willing to exchange the beautiful dress for a suit just to stand next to them.
It may seem like it’s not that much of a big deal but please know that I look like crap in pants. Which girl in the right mind would...