December 2011
65 posts
Thank you, 2011.
2012
1. Make better mistakes.
I’ve been super protected my whole life - In school, we were taught not to make mistakes and we were punished for them. Parents and friends would tell me what to stay away from and so I did. But as I got older, I realized that isn’t really living at all.
I’d rather do what is considered wrong than to wonder how it’s like to be doing it. And if it...
Cry
It’s been too long, far too long since I’ve cried at all. But somehow, last night, with a crying girl in my arms, I was reminded of my pathetic attached-self. And then the tears came because, well, I knew her pain.
When you try your best and don’t succeed (Coldplay!); when you naively thought that putting yourself out there, stripped bare of pride and shame, in front of the one...
the F word
I’ve been waiting for a good time to write this and this is it (duh).
I have put on a lot of weight (I won’t go as far as to use the F word because I am not) and before you go on to tell me that I’m fine, I will tell you I am not. This is not a cry for attention or me asking for a whole slew of “nah, you look fine what!” because I don’t need others’...
Thicke or Thin
I am terribly obsessed with Robin Thicke, thanks to Adam.
They don’t make music like that no more. Sensuous, chill, luxe. And I absolutely love his suits. I’m all for the extreme display of decadence… Too much of everything is just right.
Just days ago, I sort of figured that maybe the man I need isn’t one that’s opposite of myself. I am terribly attracted to men...
LOL THIS IS ME
boy: hi
me: so what kind of weather are you thinking for our wedding like spring or winter maybe summer because i like strapless dresses yeah and if we're planning on having kids i like names that start with "a" how about you also have you thought about a retirement plan we could go into early retirement and like move to the south like birds lol if ur a bird then i'm a bird and do you want to be buried or cremated i think we should have our ashes sprinkled over this spot cause we met here
“Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let every new year...”
– Benjamin Franklin (via misswallflower)
proof
I have, once again, proven myself right (and further affirmed) that if you TOTALLY disappear when you’re attached, you can be sure that when you return to the arms of your friends (and you definitely will) when you have problems/break up, they will be pissed and tell you “I told you so!”
Seriously man, have some sense and realize this. It’s like you never had a life before...
yes
YES
kissmas
Today’s gonna be special. Today’s all I ever wanted for many years now… And just when I’ve left the douchebag, it is happening this year. So, bless me!
Always and forever thankful for the boys. And now, Kellyn.
Eve
Spent the eve with my dad and my sis having the most un-Christmasy dinner but it was almost the best seafood dinner I’ve had all year at the unlikely of most places.
I haven’t done this with my dad in a very long time and I really appreciate how he thinks of me, especially since this would be my first xmas eve alone. We walked around MBS, drove around, had dessert at Ah Chew’s...
know your match
Before you wreck yourself, check yourself.
There are two types of people in this world: One who graciously accept warnings, the other that hides like a coward in denial.
I have said whatever I needed to say and your choice remains yours. Not everyone is meant for great things… I can understand that, thats why you have made your choice.
Life goes on - I continue servicing clients that YOU...
Food for thought
Would you rather die a virgin or die thinking that the worst sex was the best you ever had?
made it
I have finally, FINALLY reached the stage where I can safely tell (young) nobodies who talk shit about me on the WWW that it’s cool you think I’m ugly and bleak.
Because at the end of the day, I am the one living the life while they remain… kids. There is really no comparing there, no competition whatsoever - nothing to their name, nothing to call their own… It would only...
to love is a blessing
I guess it’s easy for people to love you but to find someone you love… That is a blessing.
I’m talking about the kind of love that consumes you; you don’t wanna love but you can’t help but to love sort of love. I haven’t felt that in a long time.
I just want to be there for someone, to be an anchor, to be of comfort, to tell someone that he is fine and that I...
Sleepless
My brain is frantically going through the imaginary drawers in my head to see if there’s anything to think and feel about but there is nothing - and so it continues to search..for nothing.
I need something, someone to think about. I want to go to sleep knowing that someone thinks about me too.
I am too PMSy. People have to stop pissing me off. I am so tired of humans.
twist & fade
Try to keep up with this entry.
I am a true believer of Fate. I believe that anything that is meant to happen would happen, and anything not meant to happen is not meant to happen for a very good reason.
When someone appears in your life, or rather, reappears in your life to be on friendlier closer terms with you, it is not without reason. It could be that he’s the one (duh), or that he...
I guess I see the resemblance
“You make me happier than I ever thought I could be. And if you let me, I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same way.” - Chandler
:’) Not the entirely the same but close -
”...But I will always be the guy that will makes you laugh.”
I am never the Monica sort but I will always laugh at your jokes no matter how lame they are… Only...
There is only song that's extremely apt now
为什么只和你能聊一整夜 为什么才道别就又想再见面
在朋友里面 就数你最特别 总让我觉得很亲很贴 为什么你在意谁陪我逛街 为什么你担心谁对我放电
你说你对我 比别人多一些 却又不说是多哪一些 友达以上 恋人未满 甜蜜心烦 愉悦混乱 我们以后 会变怎样 我迫不及待想知道答案 再靠近一点点 就让你牵手 再勇敢一点点 我就跟你走 你还等什么 时间已经不多 再下去 只好只做朋友 再向前一点点 我就会点头 再冲动一点点 我就不闪躲 不过三个字 别犹豫这么久 只要你说出口 你就能拥有我 为什么 你寂寞只想要我陪 为什么我难过只肯让你安慰 我们心里面 明明都有感觉 为什么不敢面对 我不相信 都动了感情却到不了 爱情 那么贴心却进不了 心底 你能不能快一点决定 对我说我爱你
TRUE STORY GUYS.
wow, how things change
Going through my archives and read this entry. It’s weird, like, it didn’t feel like I wrote that yet I could still remember how it felt vaguely.
That motherfucking heartbreaking breakup was truly the start of my life.
Thinking back, you only know how strong you are when you lived through the worst scenario and in this case, I’ve lost the one person that I trusted the most. The...
Boss
One of the best nights I’ve had in a while and no, it didn’t involve any bit of alcohol. We had dim sum at Swee Choon (which was goooood) and then played I’m The Boss which was TONS of fun.
In the middle of the game, I felt a little pissed at myself for 1. giving up money because of my useless pride 2. hesitation caused me to lose money 3. losing money that could have been mine...
countdown
Was reading my archives to see how much I used to like (we’ll call him General T here) and chanced upon this article I shared here.
I shared the link with him without saying a thing and he said “the last paragraph… is me.”
“You’ll know I like you if you like yourself, if you’re a strong person with convictions. You can let it be my show, you can let me have all the...
Timing
It currently feels like the first snow fall.
I’ve never felt snow before, neither have I seen the first snow fall, but I am sure it feels like that - you’ve hoped for it to come, you feel it in your bones but it just doesn’t seem like it was gonna snow. You forget about hoping for the snow and just then, it snows. Unexpectedly. Silently. You’re not prepared for the snow...
meditate
The rise and fall of my day is too drastic.
I need to meditate and feel nothing.
In Time With You
I had one of the best times with the cutest person, ever.
In spite of my job, I still find it extremely difficult to make small talk with others. It isn’t because I don’t have the ability to - I have no ground to even make small talk and plus I really don’t care enough about others.
I talk to so many people everyday or even go out with them but few can really hit off with me...
comme down
I’ve too much to say hence the silence on twitter. I don’t know how to start.
1. I don’t know what you want from me. You make me happy. We are clearly from different worlds and it makes me feel meh when you go out with girls who are Lians. Girls who can’t even string a proper, grammatically sound sentence. Girls who… There is really no competition so I’m not...
“A woman who knows her worth will never stay where she is under-appreciated.”
– (via theprcloset)
C
As soon as I care for someone, out of my capacity, and he doesn’t feel anything, I drop him. No need for reasons. No need for explanations. It’s just how I roll.
Out of respect for my friends, I listened to them and my fortune teller, I gave it another chance but no, as someone who doesn’t give a fuck bout anybody cept my own friends and family, this is too much.
Nobody is...
Love on..where again?
So I wrote an email to my future self in hopes that I will…
1. Remind/Check myself of how blessed I am if I were in a relationship as compared to now
2. Remind/Check myself never to let history repeat - the spoon-feeding & friend-ditching
3. Be in a better place than I am now
And hopefully then, I could listen to Beyonce’s Love On Top again and actually mean it.
By the time I...
Wife
A wife is a woman who serves her husband dinner at the end of the day no matter how undeserving he is of her food. She sits next to him, serving him, looking after him, regardless of how much money he brings home, how much of a loser he is in life, how unhappy she is with him for whatever reasons.
The duty of a wife is to be a wife. As long as you live up to that title, nobody can call you...
“I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them that no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and you saw them crying in their bed at night or singing to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street and even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think after seeing them at their most...
I feel you in my heart and I don't even know you.
Ok.. Calm down gurl
O..kay, so this is my #2 wedding song, the one that plays during the first walk-in for the dinner.
I can’t find a video that plays the original music so I watched this video of Namie Amuro singing Can You Celebrate live.
Okay, see, this song is about the celebration that I (the girl) now belong to you (the guy) because we’re gonna have sex/bond as one which is LOVELY because what...
Plan B
This time next year if I’m still unattached, work remains monotonous, plan B will roll out.
And I won’t be here anymore. This country is too small and too much fug.
Lemony
Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but...